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Elizabeth has
long thought of passing on her angel story in order to encourage
young mothers, but procrastinated because there was no way to
prove what had occurred. Finally, she decided to just TELL it
(which is the way it happens to most of us, Elizabeth!).
“My second
child, Joe, was in the 8th grade in public school,” Elizabeth
recalls. “We had discovered that he was using drugs. We were
going everywhere looking for help for him, but meeting a lot of
brick walls. I felt terrible. I was heartsick over my child
and I felt like a bad parent.” Elizabeth believed she had
failed Joe in some way, and she blamed herself. God had given
her this precious life to raise---and she had fallen short.
On one
particularly bad day, Elizabeth waited until her husband and all
five children were away from the house. Then she sat down at the
kitchen table, put her head on her folded arms and wept. “Oh
God, where did I go wrong?” she asked aloud. “What more could I
have done? I failed Joe and I failed you, as a parent." She had
never felt such despair. And that’s when it happened.
Elizabeth felt
a hand on her right shoulder. It startled her, because she knew
she was home alone. She turned to look but saw no one there.
Still, she could feel the pressure of the hand, firm and
consoling. Fear gripped her for a moment. Was this real, or
was grief disturbing her mind? “Then I ‘heard’ a voice,” she
says. “Whether it was with my ears or like a telepathy, I am
not sure to this day. But this is what I heard:”
"In the
beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. He created
the creatures of the sea, the birds of the air, animals of the
land, and He created man and woman. And God was a GOOD parent.
He walked with his children in the garden and talked with them
in the evening and all he asked for was their love and
respect. But Adam & Eve blew it! Does that make God a bad
parent?"
Amazed and
surprised, Elizabeth vigorously shook her head No. Then the
voice went on: "And neither are you. Did God blame
himself for Adam and Eve's choices? Did he look for things he
could have done differently? NO. He held them
accountable--because he loved them and wanted them to grow. Now
go and do the same..."
A peace and
comfort came over Elizabeth that could only have been from God's
realm. She had never thought of the story of Adam and Eve in
those terms, and how God’s parenting might resemble her own.
Instantly she went from blaming herself to a blessed, astonished
release, a desire instead to deal with the problem, and to trust
and depend on God to help her take care of Joe. Nor did she
ever cry over this situation again.
”I have no
proof that it was an angel,” Elizabeth says. “There was no one
here but me at the time. I never saw an angel with my eyes or
even in my mind's eye. But I believe it was an angel because
the voice spoke of God like a narrator in a movie would, and yet
it was talking directly to me.” And she obeyed, dismissing the
question of blame, and simply seeking help for her son. Today
Joe is a fine adult, married and raising four children. God
truly did remain faithful to Elizabeth, as she did to Him. With
a little help from an angel….
(C) 2003 Joan
Wester Anderson
www.joanwanderson.com
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